The Coming of the Frost

A crisp scent on the
Air.
Colors changing.
Brisk, invigorating, And clear
Fall comes.
The thick smell of wood-burning
Fireplaces infusing into the atmosphere.

A gradual change almost not noticed
Slowly creeping over the land,
Silent and watchful,
The first hint of the beautiful crystals to come
Lurks in with the fading light.

Memories accompany the
change in season.
Things of the past.
Remembrance.
This time of year is all about the
Ancient things.
Traditions of the past.
A time to ponder and understand.
A peaceful time.
A time to slow down.
The coming of the frost brings
A whole new world.

My Prince Charming

One girl and one
Boy meeting at
A wondrous ball.
She, so beautiful.
He in awe.
What was it that
Drew him to her?
The look in her eyes?
The way she carried herself?

So suddenly and deeply
They feel in love.
How is something like that
Possible?
Love at first sight?
Soul mates?
I think not.
There must be more,
So much more.
To this story.

Every girl day-dreams about
Finding her prince and
Living happily ever after.
Is that what they achieved?

I want to find my prince.
My knight on a white horse.
The one I'm meant to be with.
I, however, am not going to find him
At a ball.
There will be no elegant gowns.
No stately stairs.
No gliding and twirling across the floor.
The night will not end in mystery
With only a shoe.
This leaves too much to chance.
So much room for a miss-step.

When I find my prince I won't need a
Dance floor to glide across.
I will be floating on air.
I won't need a fancy gown to leave
Him in awe.
He'll have eyes only for me no
Matter what I wear.
It will not be guess work.

When I find him,
If I haven't already,
We will have the story
Cinderella missed out on.
We'll have the imperfections,
Inconsistencies, and problems.
We'll have something so real.
I don't want the a fantasy love
Story.
I want true love that, despite flaws,
Really will last forever.

I want my happily ever after and
I'm prepared to wait.

My emo re-write of You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and cried

I live for you dear, and only you dear
I can not take this anymore
You'll never know dear how much you hurt me
Please just take this pain away

You broke my heart dear, all into pieces
You left it bleeding in my hands
If you must leave me, please don't deceive me
For I will surely die

My wrists are bleeding, I stopped believing
That we were ever meant to be
How could I have been dependent on you
For all my happiness

Luminescence

Soft and shimmering
Silent and smoldering.
Deep and taunting.
Colors changing
Like a gem seen in a
Different light.
Showing each emotion
Better than any other
Feature.
Some passing quickly
Others to linger.

One emotion is not
Easy to mistake.
Some call it a glow.
I see it when
Just one thought
Of that special someone
Crosses your mind.
Everyone looks better
With that glow.

It is the look of pure joy.
Stronger than anything else.
Words can not
Describe it.
You can not hide
The shine in your eyes.

Only something or
Someone you truly
Love can bring out your
Personal luminescence.
The most cherished happiness.

Forever

This, life, is a process in which nothing is certain.
Forever is a word that has so much meaning but we,
Who have not experienced it, can not comprehend it.
It is something beyond our grasp. Unfathomable.

Therefore how can you say something will last forever?
People change so frequently it is impossible to tell.
You may feel one way one day and completely different the next.
I was not naive enough to think we would be friends forever.
I've lost many good friends through my own folly as well as that of others.
People grow together just the same as they grow apart.
Some relationships last longer than others.
However, they can never stay the same from day to day.
The purpose of life is to grow and change.

We have grown apart and it kinda hurts.
But I know someone different will come into my life.
Too fast, too soon.
We really didn't know each other at all.
I wish things had gone differently but I can't change the past.

We are starting to come together.
Differently than before but somehow the same.
We had our rough patches.
But we seem to have over come them.
We have something better than we had before.
Looks like we still have a place in each others lives.
You are now one of my best friends when, at one point,
We couldn't stand each other.

Most of my friends have come and gone but a few, as of now,
Have stayed constant.
Are always there.
I'm going to make the most of every friendship while it lasts.

Comfortable Silence

I feel like a wind-up
Brittney doll around most.
Someone to entertain at
Their beck and call.
Just pull the string and
Off I go, hours of laughs.
When they're done down they
Drop me into that dark corner
Of the Nursery
They with something
Better to do and I
Left to gather dust
Until someone needs a
Pick-me-up
I feel so fake but,
For the most part,
I know I'm not.

I am Craving that
Silence.
Not that achingly out of
Place silence but that
Silence full of understanding.
That comfortable silence.

Sitting next to each other
Without a word
Exchanging smiles

Kicking our feet
Completely at ease

Listening to music on
Our way home

Sitting on your front
Lawn eating grapes

The silent moments, the
Quiet moments, and the
Few times I actually
Express myself
Keep me sane.
Those little moments with
My best friends
Keep me real.
Let me know I am
Valued by at least a
Few for more than
Their own entertainment.