Secrets

Secrets keep and secrets stay.
Slowly wasting the day away.
Ripping at the tender heart.
And tearing at the delicate mind.
Things gone wrong and
Encouraged.
Why did they have
To happen that way?

I want to throw-up my
Feelings.
The ones that are
Making me
Physically ill.
But then all my
Secrets would
Spill.
For all to see.

"Where there's a will
There's a way" they say.
I wish I had the
Strength, the will,
The desire,
I want this pain to
Leave me.
But I can't do it alone.

I need You.
I need Your strength.
I need Your will
I need Your desire.
I need to come unto You.
You know all my secrets
And I am ashamed.
I don't know how I
Can stand before You now.
But I must.

Losing it

Losing it.
Losing you.
I thought I had
This figured out
But now there's
Nothing I can do.

They lasted so
Long, my feelings
For you...
Now they're gone.
And I know yours
Are too.

I don't know how
I should feel...
Relieved?
I guess I am.
But I'm also
A little confused.

A hole is left in my
Heart.
I spent so long
Digging it out for you.
I spent so long
Hanging on for you.

Now I'm not sure.
Not sure if I should be
Sad.
No I don't think so.
I feel somewhat empty
But I know I will
Figure it out.

You will always keep a
Special place in my heart.
Even if it's not one of love.

I realize you've moved
On and I don't even care
To who.
Because I know now that
We were never meant
To be.
Maybe she's the one
That will truly make
You happy.
I'm more than pleased
To say.

Because now
I can move on.

Now I can let
Myself be free.

Losing it.
Losing you.

Losing it.
Losing you.
It's ok.
I've done all
That I can do.

We'll just be friends.
And that's just fine.
I'm not used to it
But just give it time.

Losing it.
Losing you.

I've not lost you.
I've found a friend

Thinking

You've got me
Thinkin'
Thinkin' harder
Than I ever
Thought.
I don't know
How my brain
Holds it all.

Things that need to be
Thought.

Pulling out those
Thoughts that just
Wish to hide.
Bringing them
To a light they
Never wanted to see.

Things that need to be
Thought.
Things that need to be
Thought.
Things that need to be
Thought!!
Why?!

The Monster of Nightmare Island

The silence falls
Dim and weary
From above.
Empty, mind
Shattering screams
Hauntingly
Chill the
Bones.
Sending
Slivers of
Icy pain
Like bullets
Through the
Soul.

Every day
The mountain top
Joins evils of
Ones of old
To bring
Forth human
Sacrifice and
Tortures never
Told

The pain
Sears deep
And cuts right
Through
Feeble fragile
Consciousness

To take away
this life in
Utmost agony
And give it
To the beast
Of time and
Space and all
Eternity.
Supporting
Ancient rituals
Of incredible
Savagery
Keep this
World spinning
In dramatic
Apathy

The Human Experince

Everything is cloudy
And unclear.
The edges blur
Before our very eyes.
Distracted and
Confused by every
Morphed shape.
The colors begin to
Blend together
And we can no
Longer see.

The need to be
Seen through
The fog and
Heard through
The glass becomes
Overwhelming.
Surrounded by
People yet so
Far away.

Selfish and
Introverted
We've forgotten to
Remember.

Forgotten to
Remember
Others in our
Lives.
We no longer
See their
Pain or
Sorrow.
But only
Shadows of
Personality.

Do you feel it
Seeping through
Your skin?
You're becoming
Numb to others
And in turn
Yourself.

We must clear
That self-centered
Fog and tear
Down those
Wall of exclusion.
To fully understand
Ourselves,
Understand
Others

Lies lies

Lies lies they're all lies
Dancing around this
Shadowed sky.
The inky shell of shadow
Bugs
Absorb light of
Deepening dusk.
Never to return
A radiance
Dissipating among
The swarm.

Empty empty so very empty
A miserable city.
Slinking in a place so dark
This emptiness binds and
Tears apart.

Cold cold everything is cold
Swirling through this
Hapless night.
Long silver fingers spindle
Thin
Touch those souls
Left behind.
Inching across the
Restless mind.

This trap set and silent.
Waiting.

Lies lies dancing
Through the
Blackened skies.