Double Edged Sword

A Knight with his trusted sword roams the land.
So fine, So solid, So impressive.
Accurately and gracefully the weapon and Its Master
Melt into one.
One will, One purpose, One power.
They become united, majestic and strong with the
Ability to protect or destroy.

Beautiful, gentle, and fragile, waits a bud just
About to Bloom.
Naive and trusting this fair Maiden
Lives simply knowing nothing more.

Perchance they meet and grow attached, realizing
There is much more to life than they thought before.
Her beauty shines forth in full bloom.
His face glowing with great pride in this Treasure
He has found.
Everyone can see their love.

They last in Joy for an untold time.
But, as all good things are, it was too good to be true.
What they had comes undone and flies away on
Vicious wings.
Broken hearted and torn apart they are no longer one
But two separate souls ripped to pieces.

Soon enough the Knight has found another sweet
Maid to give his heart.

The poor withered Maiden, forgotten, watches the
New happy couple and experiences even more
Pain than she had before
She is stabbed through her already
Broken and Bleeding heart with that
Same sword that once protected her.

Thrown away

This is always how it goes....
You make me happy.
You make me feel loved.
You make me feel wanted.
And then you drop me like a rock.
Is it that you get bored with me?
Is it that I'm just not what you thought you wanted?
As soon as you find something better you're gone.
As soon as you get what you wanted you're gone.

It makes me wonder if they realize...
If they realize that drastic harm brought upon me.
Upon my self-esteem.
My views of self-worth.
Everyone does it...
Boys, friends, everyone.
I guess I'm just meant to feel
Thrown away

Voices

(Writers note: All words striked through are over emphasized harshly, all words italicized are said with a false convincing and deceiving tone, all words striked through and italicized are sickly sweet with underlying harsh tones)

Gall... They're so annoying.
All of them... All those other
People. Why do they always try
To control you? Try to tell you
What to do? Is there something
Wrong with them, or is there
Something wrong with you?

Is there something wrong with
You?

You'll do what you want when
You want. At least that's what you
Try to tell yourself. But you
Know that's not true. You'll do
Anything to avoid conflict.
Anything to make others
Happy. You're WEAK!

Seriously, is there something
Wrong with you?

You think you're so high and
Mighty, but you're not. It's
Just so easy for you to make
Mistakes. You're so easy
To break!

There's gotta be something
Wrong with you!

There's so much wrong with
You, you don't even know!
 But I guess it's OK because
Somehow people STILL manage to
Love you. Remember those
Same people can't be trusted.
There's no way to Prove
Them. So you're pretty much gonna
Be hurt no matter what you
Do. You might as well
Learn to get over it. Or better
Yet, turn from them. Turn to me.
Turn to us.
Protect yourself. It'll work,
We promise. You can always 
Trust us, I know you better
Than anyone else does. We know
You better. I know
What's best for you. We know
What's best for you. I promise.

Good girl, good girl. Remember, I am
The only one you can trust.
We are the only ones you can trust.

Do you know?

Do you know you make my heart jump?
Do you know you make my mind race?
Do you know you make my stomach do flips?
You make me smile so big I fear my
Face'll stick like that.
But that's OK because they say a girl is
Always prettiest when she smiles.

Do you know I was expecting you to say you couldn't come?
Do you know I was expecting a conversation like the one that happened that night?
Do you know I lost respect for not only you but myself as well?
I tried to convince myself you were different because
I wanted you to be.
But you are just like all the others.

I want to believe in you again.
You say you want to prove to me you're worth it,
You want it...
Well start proving.
Help me regain that respect for you.
Please bring back that New Crush Feeling

Billet-doux (in french just because it looks cooler)

Cher Vous,
Mon Amour ce jour-ci j'écris à vous tout les vœux les plus profonds de mon coeur.
Je ne sais pas comment exprimer dans les mots combien je me soucie profondément .
Mais j'essaierai et vous aiderai à voir votre grande valeur et
Le sens dans ma vie.

Vous êtes l'as de coeurs et vous avez capturé le mien.
Le fait de penser à vous fait mon coeur faire quelques méchants mouvements de gymnaste,
Je ne saurais pas même comment commencer à appeler.
Vous avez attrapé mon attention
Vous avez tourné ma tête.
Vous êtes les seuls que je veux par mon côté.

Ma vie a été changée maintenant que vous y êtes entrés.
Vous me faites vouloir être quelqu'un noble de votre amour et
Je l'aime.
Vous me faites mieux.

Nous sommes la paire parfaite.
Le match parfait.
Avez-vous entendu des amis intimes ?
Bien j'ai trouvé le mien.

Avec tout nous avons été par, vous avez été mon soutien, mon ancre.
Vous m'aimez pour que je suis et n'ai jamais essayé de me changer.
Toutes mes idiosyncrasies sont attrayantes dans vos yeux.

Mon désir le plus profond consiste en ce que vous serez toujours les miens.
Je vous celui ai donnés qui est le plus précieux avant tout,
Mon vrai amour, mon coeur, mon affection éternelle et soin.
Et avant tout je vous ai donnés quelqu'un qui ira faire
Soyez toujours là.
Qui vous soutiendra dans tout que vous faites.
Je vous suis consacré de chaque façon simple.
L'amour est la seule façon de décrire le sentiment que j'ai pour vous
Mais même qui n'est pas assez.

Amour,
Moi

P.S. Saint-Valentin Heureuse :)

Billet-doux

Dear You,
My Love this day I write to you all the deepest wishes of my heart.
I do not know how to express in words how much I deeply care.
But I will try and help you see your great worth and
Meaning in my life.

You are the ace of hearts and you have captured mine.
Thinking of you makes my heart do some wicked gymnast moves,
I wouldn't even know how to begin to name.
You have caught my attention
You have turned my head.
You are the only one I want by my side.

My life has been changed now that you've entered it.
You make me want to be someone worthy of your love and
I love it.
You make me better.

We are  the perfect pair.
The perfect match.
Have you heard of soulmates?
Well I found mine.

With all we've been through, you've been my support, my anchor.
You love me for who I am and never tried to change me.
All my idiosyncrasies are attractive in your eyes.

My deepest wish is that you will always be mine.
I have given you that which is most precious above all,
My true love, my heart, my undying affection and care.
And most of all I have given you someone who will
Always be there.
Who will support you in everything you do.
I am devoted to you in every single way.
Love is the only way to describe the feeling I have for you
But even that is not enough.

Love,
Me

P.S. Happy Valentine's day :)

My Letter to You and My Response

Dear You,

I wish I could tell you I love you, I wish I could tell you I care.

I thought you cared once... Why don't you now?

I wish I could honestly give you that feeling you wish I had there.

How could your feelings change so drastically in such a short amount of time?

There's nothing between us and there never will be

You said you loved me... Where did that go? 

Get over it

I can't get over it. I can't move on. 

Move on

It hurts too much

Forget that there ever was a "you and me" 

We used to be so amazing together, what happened?

You may say I'm a jerk, you may hate me, you may never want to see me again..

You're a jerk but I don't hate you...

But you're just a stupid girl so what should I care?

I need your friendship even if I can't have your love

I never needed you

You lied about how you felt?

I just toyed with your heart  

You played with my emotions!!

"Now it's broken" you say...

My heart is shattered...

Well you never should have let me have it in the first place

I trusted you to keep it safe

This isn't my fault, it's yours

You ruined everything

I'm not really sorry

You were never sorry

There's nothing left to say 

That was just a word to you

There was no meaning behind it and I could tell

These are the words that came out when I hurt you

You hurt me so badly but I am stronger for it

But I lied

I know you never really loved me

I was trying to protect myself

I don't know how anyone could be so selfish

I was afraid to let you get too close

I will never trust you again

I wanted you to believe I never loved you

How can I believe anything you say? 

The truth is I loved you more than anything 

First I tried to console you

I didn't need consolation, you only made it worse

But that just made me love you more

I don't care how you feel anymore

So I had to separate myself completely to feel justified in what I'd done 

I don't know how anyone could be so cruel

You're beautiful and amazing

I can't believe your words

I'm so sorry I ever left

You made me feel so worthless

I regret what I've said,

If you really want my trust you'll have to work for it

What I've done,

You'll have to prove it

Anything that caused you pain

I just don't understand

Can you ever forgive me? 

I will forgive you because it will help me heal

Love,

    Me

My Response

I thought you cared once... Why don't you now?
How could your feelings change so drastically in such a short amount of time?

You said you loved me... Where did that go?
I can't get over it... I can't move on
It hurts too much.
We used to be so amazing together. What happened?

You're a jerk but I don't hate you...
I need your friendship even if I can't have your love.
You lied about how you felt?
You played with my eomtions!
My heart is shattered...
I trusted you to keep it safe.
You ruined everything

You were never sorry.
That was just a word to you.
There was no meaning behind it and I could tell.

You hurt me so badly but I am stronger for it.
I know now you never really loved me.
I don't know how anyone could be so selfish.
I will never trust you again
How can I believe anything you've said.
I didn't need consolation, you only made it worse
I don't care how you feel anymore.
I don't know how anyone could be so cruel.

I can't believe your words.
You made me feel so worthless.
If you really want my trust you'll have to work for it
You'll have to prove it.
I will forgive you because it will help me heal.
I just don't understand.

My Letter to You

Dear You,

I wish I could tell you I love you. I wish I could tell you I care.

I wish I could honestly give you that feeling you wish I had there.

There's nothing between us and there never will be.

Get over it.

Move on.

Forget that there ever was a "you and me"

You may say I'm a jerk, you may hate me, you may never want to see me again...

But you're just a stupid girl, so what should I care?

I never needed you...

I just played with your heart.

"Now it's broken" you say...

Well you never should have let me have it in the first place.

This isn't my fault it's yours.

I'm not really sorry.

There's nothing left to say.

These are all the words that came out when I hurt you.

But I lied.

I was trying to protect myself...

I was afraid to let you get too close.

I wanted you to believe I never loved you.

The truth is I loved you more than anything.

First I tried to console you.

But that just made me love you more.

So I had to separate myself completely to feel justified in what I'd done.

You're beautiful and amazing.

I'm so sorry I ever left.

I regret what I've said,

What I've done.

Anything that caused you pain.

Can you ever forgive me?

Love,

Me