My emo re-write of You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and cried

I live for you dear, and only you dear
I can not take this anymore
You'll never know dear how much you hurt me
Please just take this pain away

You broke my heart dear, all into pieces
You left it bleeding in my hands
If you must leave me, please don't deceive me
For I will surely die

My wrists are bleeding, I stopped believing
That we were ever meant to be
How could I have been dependent on you
For all my happiness

Luminescence

Soft and shimmering
Silent and smoldering.
Deep and taunting.
Colors changing
Like a gem seen in a
Different light.
Showing each emotion
Better than any other
Feature.
Some passing quickly
Others to linger.

One emotion is not
Easy to mistake.
Some call it a glow.
I see it when
Just one thought
Of that special someone
Crosses your mind.
Everyone looks better
With that glow.

It is the look of pure joy.
Stronger than anything else.
Words can not
Describe it.
You can not hide
The shine in your eyes.

Only something or
Someone you truly
Love can bring out your
Personal luminescence.
The most cherished happiness.

Forever

This, life, is a process in which nothing is certain.
Forever is a word that has so much meaning but we,
Who have not experienced it, can not comprehend it.
It is something beyond our grasp. Unfathomable.

Therefore how can you say something will last forever?
People change so frequently it is impossible to tell.
You may feel one way one day and completely different the next.
I was not naive enough to think we would be friends forever.
I've lost many good friends through my own folly as well as that of others.
People grow together just the same as they grow apart.
Some relationships last longer than others.
However, they can never stay the same from day to day.
The purpose of life is to grow and change.

We have grown apart and it kinda hurts.
But I know someone different will come into my life.
Too fast, too soon.
We really didn't know each other at all.
I wish things had gone differently but I can't change the past.

We are starting to come together.
Differently than before but somehow the same.
We had our rough patches.
But we seem to have over come them.
We have something better than we had before.
Looks like we still have a place in each others lives.
You are now one of my best friends when, at one point,
We couldn't stand each other.

Most of my friends have come and gone but a few, as of now,
Have stayed constant.
Are always there.
I'm going to make the most of every friendship while it lasts.

Comfortable Silence

I feel like a wind-up
Brittney doll around most.
Someone to entertain at
Their beck and call.
Just pull the string and
Off I go, hours of laughs.
When they're done down they
Drop me into that dark corner
Of the Nursery
They with something
Better to do and I
Left to gather dust
Until someone needs a
Pick-me-up
I feel so fake but,
For the most part,
I know I'm not.

I am Craving that
Silence.
Not that achingly out of
Place silence but that
Silence full of understanding.
That comfortable silence.

Sitting next to each other
Without a word
Exchanging smiles

Kicking our feet
Completely at ease

Listening to music on
Our way home

Sitting on your front
Lawn eating grapes

The silent moments, the
Quiet moments, and the
Few times I actually
Express myself
Keep me sane.
Those little moments with
My best friends
Keep me real.
Let me know I am
Valued by at least a
Few for more than
Their own entertainment.

Sick

With Everything you
Say and do I lose
Another bit of
Respect for you.
Immature, Self-centered,
Over-dramatic,
Opinionated, and down
Right Rude.
Making life harder for
Yourself and those
Who try to love you.

You refuse to see the
Big picture.
The Real picture.
Do you do this to get
Attention?
Is it to see you cares?
I'm sick of it.
Everyone is!
Stop pretending!
Stop playing these
Games!
You hurt everyone
Around you.
How can you not see?
Or maybe you choose
Not to.

Friendship is a two
Way thing.
I may be a friend to
You but you a certainly
Not a friend to me.

I am

I am
Versatile
Adaptable
A constant
Aide
So many
Things fit
Into one

Confident
Strong
Wise
Knowledgeable
Wise
Outgoing
Caring
And so
Much more.
That is what
I am for
Others

I am
Here for
You a
Pillar of
Positive
Strength.
Always
Willing to
Help.

I give
Encouragement
and
Enlightenment
To all I can

I observe and
Understand
More than
You'll
Ever know

I am
Relied
Upon to
Remedy
Any situation.
I quickly and
Efficiently
Perform my
Duty.
But I
Feel I
Stand
Alone at this
Task
Insecure,
Confused, and
Lost.
Feeling
Used and
Unappreciated
By my
Peers.

Very few
Make me
Feel
Loved and
Wanted
Even when
They
Do not
Need my
Help.

Those I
Thank.
Those I
Love.
Those I
Will do
Anything for.

My Frustrations

Feelings of
Discontent I
Can't quite
Shake.
Present in
Daily life but
For the most
Part Ignored or
Unnoticed.

Maybe it's
Just me.
Maybe I
Need to get
Over it.
I wish I could.
I miss you
I need you.
You're slowly
Drifting away
From my
Warm
Embrace.

I feel I am
Losing you,
If only for
A short while,
In the
Dangerously
Fast current of
Life.

My Perception is
You are already
Gone.
You don't seem to
Wish to come
Back to me.
Your Perception is
Nothing has Changed.

But still I
Feel it.
That
Unfathomable
Connection.
Superficially
Fading but
Still Present and
Strong in the
Reality of it.

Don't let Them
Change you.
Be who you
Truly are.
That is the
Person I
Made a spot
For in my Life
And only you can
Fill it.

Beholder

They seem to
Love them.
For why?
My funny
Little quirks?
Odd little
Habits?
Why?

Your smile
Your personality
Your laugh

So many small
Things add up
To feelings of
More than
Friendship.
Things some
Find annoying
but apparently
Some find
Endearing.

Beauty really is
In the
Eye of the
Beholder.
Based on the
Perspective and
Experiences of the
Beholder in
Question.

Beauty is an
Outward
Appearance
As much as an
Inward
Quality.

The world
Focuses on the
Outside but to
Really Love and
Not only Lust
The heart, mind, and
Soul need to be
Taken into account.

They see my soul,
Hear my heart, and
Understand that I can
Be everything
For them
But they do not
Understand
They can not
Be everything for me.

Enough

I don't
Find myself
Worthy of the
Praise I
Receive

I do not
Realize the
Amazing
Qualities I
Posses

I only see
The harm
I've caused
In my own
Life.
I see the
Things in me
They will
Never
Know about

I have
My Struggles
and
My demons.
They taint my
Self-image

I know I can
Conquer them

I want to
Become the
Example to
Myself that I
Am for Others

I want to let
That Example
Take me
Over,
Change me, and
Become me.

Modern

We have so
Much they Didn't
Have in the
Past

Electricity,
Internet,
Cell phones,
Anything and
Everything
Possible to
Make life
Easier and more
Efficient

But even
These
Amazing
Conveniences May
Become a
Hindrance

They can
Distort Human
Communication.
Influence our
Lives so
Much that
We no longer
Know how to
Interact

They can make
Us Lazy.
When Presented
With a
Real Challenge
We will fail.

We are Alone
In our
Small small
World

We have
Secluded
Ourselves
Given ourselves
Over to the
Latest Technologies.
We are destroying
Our Humanity