My One True Friend

You were my one true friend
The one person that
Always made me feel
Safe and loved.
I've never felt that
Connection with anyone
Before.


You made me so
Happy.
Not because I was
In love with you
But because I love you.
And I felt that
Love returned.
Even if you didn't
Express it often.

I had a stability
In you.
A friendship that
Was meant to be.

But, through unexpressed
Insecurity, I ruined it.
And now I hate myself
For causing both
Of us so much pain.

I still don't fully
Understand the situation...
But it becomes more
Clear to me as time
Goes on.

I realize I screwed up,
Messed up,
And ruined things...
But now I want to do
Everything I can to
Fix them.

That one true friend
I had and lost
Means more to me
Than anything
Else

I'm so sorry.
These words sound so
Cliche and over used.
They come no where
Close to expressing
What I feel.
But it is the only thing
I can think of to
Describe this feeling
Of regret and
Loneliness.

I hope you can forgive me