Stepping Aside

Is this something
I should do?
Let things come
Between me and
You?
I am in great
Conflict.
I don't know.

I feel like
Someone else is
Trying to take
"My" place.
I feel left out
And sometimes
Ignored.
Pushed out...
It's hard...
So hard.

When you're
With that
Special
Someone
All you can
Think about is
Them.
People have done
This before,
Let me go,
And I've always
Stepped aside.
Always given up.

But now I'm tired.
Mentally and emotionally,
Sometimes, just sometimes,
I wish I could win.
I wish I could get what
I want.

I want to take this
Path.
One step at a time.
But it seems like
There are too
Many heard steps
Ahead.
One way or another
Life moves on and
I must force
Myself to walk.

I gave up but
I wish I would
Win.
Just once I wish
I could win....